Forgot how good they were. Watched a live video. Not so good. lol.
Lost another 2 pound. Was talking to one of the girls in my class, she said that i had even lost weight since i 1st started college. And i thought to myself, like i feel more self concious now. I feel fatter and uglier. No lie. Its like my mind is working backward. I never cared this much when i was bigger. not in the sense that i didnt knwo i was fat cause that would just be plain retarded. But looking at photos i take like for myspaec blah blah i dont look like that in real life. I know i dont. And i know my friends think it too. But why put up an ugly photo i though eh? Im scared ive got my grans double chin hand me down.Cause my aunty was liek rexic and still had a double chin. its a hand me down my mum says. im raging if i loose even more weight and its still there. Id love to be caught off guard in a photo and not go oh my god wheres my neck at? Sorry if i always go on about my image. but it is the bane of my life. Shallow i know. but hey.
Vic's here on friday. Im so excited i could probably pee. =]
