Oh man.

just had a huge talk with my mum. And I'm like nearly in tears about how scared i am about things like not getting married and having kids. What if I'm always on my own min. Ah totally filling up. This terrifies me :( like you have on clue. I'm so scared I'll be old and alone and have no excitement in my life. But at the same time i have no clue what i want to do. All i want though is to get married and have two kids. Maybe do designing. But i have no thing pushing me. You'd think my fear would push me. But i cant push things like love. As gay as that sounds. Oh to be in love min. My god my heads going crazy right now.