people. and how things can be turned on and off so easily and quickly.
man i really have hated the past couple of weeks.
june was supposed to be THEE month.
nothing good has happened.
at all.
everything is slowly falling to shit infront of me. and i'm doing nothing about it.
totally pissing myself off.
i guess i'm never gonna be one of these people who have a lust for life.
know what i find so fucking ironic.
i was even that fussed about you.
i dont believe in god. so i dont know who to blame for seriously having it out for me.
wheres the break and when can i catch it?
so as i sit here and console my friends with their problems.
and as per brush mines under the carpet.
"smile, keep them guessing"
right now i dont want to be in fife.
i dont want to be in glasgow.
i dont want to be in aberdeen.
all i know is that i want to be in my bed.
i've thrown a year down the drain.
blatently failed a HNC.
and i wonder why people dont take me seriously.
i can't even stick in at college.
times like these i really do wish my mum was as strict as you.
i would have done so much better.
but i cant blame her for my failing at life.
she's done her best i think.
plus at the end of the day.
for the things ive been through, seen, experienced
i could of turned out far worse than i actually have.
just my lack of willingness and will power is my sheer downfall.
here's too hopefully things looking up.
